That movie makes me cry so hard.
» Arwen is a 25-year-old New York native. Originally hailing from Long Island, she likes to spend most of her time in New York City. She's loud, quirky, and has a short attention span. Some of the things she enjoys are sushi, video games, cosmetics, and all things Japanese. More?

I’m sick of this shit

Eric will never admit to hitting me, choking me, threatening me, lying to me, stealing from me, isolating me from my friends or family, or manipulating me to do his bidding. Of course not. Because admitting to that would mean admitting that he was an abusive partner. In his mind, he did no wrong, he was the innocent one who was manipulated and strung around, and I got hit or threatened because I deserved it.

The fact of the matter is that this man just wants to make me miserable. He’s tried every way he can around the restraining order, including harassing my friends, getting other people to harass me, posting anonymous comments on my site, calling from blocked numbers, and today, sending me an anonymous email.

Since you love tracing out people’s email addresses and care more about getting people arrested I will send this email this way, and I would BET my last dollar you will never publish this to your I NEED ATTENTION all the fucking time website.

The only person I care about getting arrested is Eric, because he belongs in jail. He makes a living by scamming and stealing from other people, and has been abusive towards at least three women (myself included).

So ONCE AGAIN you have FOUND someone special. What is this the 4th in 8 months. We all know you never gave a shit about being married and this poor sap is getting suckered it by you “why”? because all your looking for in life is someone to pay attention to you?

I often refer to my friends as “special,” because they care for and love me in a way that Eric never did. The first actual “special someone” since I left him was Khris; I admire him as a person and as a friend. That never happened though, thanks to Eric stalking Khris at his job, his home, and sending him constant threats. I’d actually made a point since then to not get myself involved with anyone, partially due to Eric being a psycho stalker, and partially because I was just starting to enjoy my freedom. I had a “friend with benefits” over the summer, but it just didn’t pan out. The guy was looking for a relationship, and I was not.

The particular special someone that I referred to in my last entry is the same special someone that I’ve been referring to for the past few months. I refuse to release even the broadest details about him in case Eric decides to stalk and threaten this one, too. My friendship with this person is very much platonic, and he makes me feel happy and good about myself. A subject that Eric never excelled in.

Between your divorce going into default and disrespecting your self what are you really planning with your life when you can’t see one thing through?

My divorce is going in to default because a certain other party refuses to cooperate. He made ridiculous hostage-situation-esque demands to my lawyer, who confided that the demands made were stupid and childish. Then when Eric falsely claimed representation, and my lawyer could no longer legally speak directly with him, Eric cried to the world that my lawyer was a flake and wouldn’t return his calls.

I’m actually respecting myself for the first time in four years. I’m eating right, I’m exercising, I’m working, I’m having fun, and I’m surrounding myself with positive influences and goals for my future.

I just don’t get you…..Better or worse was never an option huh? I wish you all the happiness in the world I really do. Good Bye

Eric never bothered to understand me. Instead, his goal was to dominate me, to own me. Every time I tried to speak my mind to him, my feelings were disregarded, or my words twisted around to imply infidelity, doubt, mistrust, etc. There was no “better” in our marriage. It was always “worse.” I was a fool for trying to be optimistic and to think that he would change.

Unfortunately, I don’t think that “good bye” is sincere. This guy continues to stalk and harass me through the internet. I have a feeling he’s not going to be able to let go, not even after the divorce is final. I feel sorry for people like him, I really do.

November 26th, 2009 | Bitching, Drama | Leave a response

6 Comments

11/26/09 @ 7:30 pm // Brandy said:

Hope that guy gets a mouth full of karma. What a pathetic jackass.

11/26/09 @ 7:42 pm // JAMES HANNAH said:

Arwen listen fuck him. That asshole don’t even have the right to do anything. Hope he gets what’s coming to him

11/26/09 @ 7:42 pm // Robert said:

Drag him to Dr. Phil. Then he’d look stupid for what he’s done.

11/26/09 @ 7:46 pm // Gordo said:

Eric, we (all of Arwen’s Friends) know you’re reading this… WTF, man? It didn’t work out, so move on. It seems like you need to get your life together before even thinking about having a relationship. Get a grip and rebuild your life. Arwen is a lost cause at this point. Even if you magically got back in her good graces, what you had will never be the same. The game is over. The idea is to play again and do better next time. If you want to keep someone, give more than you get. There is no other way. Get yourself some good job prospects, do well by them and then do well by some other woman. Better hurry up b/c it’s almost too late for you at your age, my friend.

11/26/09 @ 8:50 pm // Nana said:

Eric needs to stop already, its been how long since the separation? he’s like a child that lost his fuckin blankey or something. Listen, you are a strong person and I cant stand him doing this shit to you over and over. He’s such a closet case its not even funny he needs to go away and stay away.

11/27/09 @ 2:04 am // Dottie said:

Woman, I have been following this saga since before you got married and I have always felt it would be dangerous since he hit your dog. It’s good that you acknowledged the danger though I wish you’d never had to deal with that piece of shit. Keep on keeping on and it’ll work out for you in the end. His jackassery will keep him miserable.

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